Well I'm still very sad. And I'll always have this pain in my heart, but it'll hear with love ^^
And right Now, The people here at DA are my dear friends. I haven't been here in four days, but you understand why right?

Me and my brother, Tai and my sister in law Carry took me to see her grave site, the day after her the 23rd. She was cremated. Half her asks where scattered at Lake Michigan where she was born, and the other half was barred here in San Jose.

I was silent the entire time, but I was saying "I miss you" and "I love you so much Keila" Over and over in my head, that by the time we left, I must have said it 1000 times.


I left her some white roses, her fave flower, and I recited a line from one of her poems.

" I stand here, before these patches of roses, and I can only see one. The purest
of them all, the queen of the rose kingdom. The elegant pure soul, White Rose. "

She must have heard me, be cause when i looked up from the flowers, I saw a dove fly off.




I'll type up all of her stories, poems and fan fix. He fave show was Sailor moon. And she was just starting to get into Inuyasha and Cowboy Bebop.

She was very innocent and pure. She did have her tougher sides, but only around her family and friends.

Also, when her Ex-Boyfriend, Jasen, found out she killer herself, he got really depressed and stopped eating. He's doing fine now, and I [we've] forgiven him. It wasn't all his fault, he just wasn't raised to be so open minded.


I on the other hand, and completely open minded. I'll listen to what people have to say, and try my best to help in anyway that I can -^_^-

When I have the time, and when I'm feeling more like my normal self then I'll talk about my life more. The Happy things, and less of the sad.

Heads up on my life for now, I was born a Hermaphrodite. Igot an operation when I was younger to made my body more of that of a females. Because of this, I'm BI sexual. But I have a higher attraction towards males, and not females as much. Here is a good site to learn about it if you would Like to, but it would mean a lot to me ifyou did look at it:
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Heh I'm glad I decided to go on, just being able to vent my feelings, and in a place where others can say what they thing and feel makes it almost like a real human connection.
I'm feeling so much better.

Thank you for reading, and God bless ^_^